Tuesday, September 16, 2014

Thought of de Day

I realise one of the worst things as I grow older is that I can't share anything with anyone anymore.

It's not that I used to share every single thing with others. But as life evolves into a more complicated state, there are more considerations to juggle and deal with. It's pretty unfortunate. I don't like it to be this way really, I don't like to swallow a lot of words down without brainstorming it or getting some feedback, but that seems to be the only way to go, in the name of maturity hey.

My 'public' blog is really... public nowadays, too. 

There's no turning back. I have to learn to be an expert of myself in order to continue striving as a person. All these will only get more 'exciting' and well, hey, I will be a better person than I've ever imagined.

Lonely. Behind my house. Subang Jaya. July 2014.

Sunday, June 15, 2014


What is love?

When it comes to love, I always don’t have a fixed definition for love. Well, I’m talking about the boy girl love, not the general love or agape love.

So Is there a perfect love?

I always hear songs, describing how exciting, pure and romantic love is. How one would love the other more and more each day, how their feelings for the other is uncontainable.

But I reckon every mature being knows that that is just a facet of love. Love encompasses so many different facets of feelings and emotions.

Having walking on this planet for 25 years, I realise life has more hardships than smooth-going moments. Same goes with love I suppose, where it often brings more disappointment, hatred and confusion. If that’s the case, why love in the very beginning?

Some people may have entered into a relationship ever so naturally that it is beyond their conscious decision. Some people may tend to overthink, and be very careful in handling relationship related issues. I would think I belong to this group more.

And having said that, I realise that once I’ve decided to step into a relationship, I am exposed to the risk of all sorts of emotional turmoils. And it involves 2 person, not just me. Meaning, I have to manage 2 persons’ emotion rather than one. That is indeed a very sticky situation.

But love has always been elevated to a position where is seems that, without love one is almost impossible to feel the fulfilment of life. Without having someone to express our love to, we would most likely be living a lonely life, while craving for a life that is satisfying. Is that the case?

Or is it simply because I have never really experienced love and that’s the roots of all these ramblings?

So what is love?


I think there must be greater wisdom in love. There must be greater testimonies of love other than those that I’ve witnessed. There must be some other facets of love that I’ve never experienced.

There must be more than this.

And the only way to find it out is to take the risk and explore it all. Would it be worth it? Time will tell.

Sunday, March 2, 2014

First Year Down

It has been a year.

I wouldn't think it's a short brief year, as most of the time I would. The last 12 months feels like a long, long time for me.

It has been a long journey that very often I couldn't see the end of it.

The reason is because it has been a journey of faith, obedience and character building. When it comes to leaving comfort zone, it has never been easy. It has never been brief. It always feel like it's taking so long to be able to have a breakthrough within myself.

Nevertheless God is good. He has put people around me to journey with me. He has put words in my heart when I feel so lost and hurtful. He is the best teacher and comforter. He is always firm and therefore I put my hope in Him, knowing that all things work for the good of those who love Him. What else could I ask for?

And now I'm embarking into the second year. I pray that God will grant me freshness and a renewed passion for my mission. The best is yet to come. =)

Pink Tulips. Wynyard, Tasmania. Oct 2012.

Wednesday, January 22, 2014

Thought of de Day

Tuesday, January 7, 2014

2014... Weeee~

2013 has gone for a week now.

It has been a year, that I am out of word to describe.
Something that I had never imagined. A journey that I am so unfamiliar with.

Well, I wasn't alone. I have family and friends with me and also God. 
Through ups and downs and continuous inner searching and refining, I guess I grew up a little bit haha.

Learned more about life and who I am and what are the things that mean to me the most.

The best thing about 2013 is that I got to end it with a trip back to my 3rd home. That's not just it, but I got to meet most of my best mates. These are the people that probably means the most to me since I left home for tertiary studies. And I met almost all of them in 2 weeks time. God is indeed great. He blessed me with things that money can't buy. I'm grateful.

Now that a week has gone, I'm anticipating what 2014 will bring. Whatever it is, I'm glad that I will never be alone with all the blessings that had been showered upon me. =)

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