It seems like whenever I feel like blogging nowadays, it's always when I'm a bit emo and sentimental.
Sometimes I think we all put too much expectation in life, hoping it to turn out the way we want it to be. But when it doesn't, we feel hurt, sad and we lose hope. We might even feel meaningless to continue with our lives because our ideal life never materialise.
Well, this is what I would tell myself:
Don't quit life even when everything fails me. This is simply because I have already lose my life the moment I gave it to Christ! How can I quit life when I have already lost my life. I am no longer in control and my life is in better hands. My duty is to simply trust that He can turn my life into something amazing that I have never imagined. He is bringing me through extraordinary path in becoming who He really wants me to be.
Trust and obey, for there's no other way.
How much more can I be blessed, than to trust in God 100% when I have no other choice in life.
To infinity... and beyond!
New Year 2016. Seems like Taman Jaya / Asia Jaya area. January 2016.
Bersih 4 has finally become a history. Malaysians did it again!
Due to some commitments I did not manage to join the rally although I really wish to. But I think that's ok. Because I think what's going to happen after the rally will determine how far we would go in this struggle. The last 34 hours is just a great effort to ignite the hearts of many Malaysians of their endless potential in pushing the nation to transform and revive. It is a symbol of our spirit; a spirit that fear neither oppressions nor lies, but upholding truth and justice.
Honestly speaking, I thought there will be more crowd turning up than what was already a massive crowd. But again that's fine. Those who have been awaken after this rally shall continue to carry the flame and open the eyes of those who are still blinded by lies. I believe these people will never turn cold until they see their struggle being paid off.
I hope this rally has already given hope to many disappointed Malaysians who wanted change that they are not alone. Although the mountain we are facing is huge, but nothing is impossible. Bersih 4 is impossible let's say 10 years ago. But little by little, Malaysians are pushing forward and today Bersih 4 has become a reality. Therefore, take heart my fellow countrymen, do not fear, do not lose hope. Darkness shall cease as the light shines. We might just be little LEDs, but when we unite in one accord, we shall shine as bright as a spotlight.
Malaysia's 58th Merdeka is a blessed one as Malaysians had shown that their love for the country is more than their comfort zone and security. They are willing to do much more than that to secure a better future for Malaysia. Malaysians have given hope to Malaysia. So don't give up on her. Never.
Selamat Hari Merdeka.
Another new year is here. Here I am, writing in 2015. It's about 8 years since I first started blogging.
All these while I have been using the theme 'The Journey' for this blog, even before I moved my blog to the blogger platform.
So many had happened for the last 8 years. This simple blog of mine here managed to record some of those moments but not much, especially recent events. I used to believe that with a blog, I can update my friends about my life. But very soon my blog transformed from recording my life's journey to recording my journey of thoughts. It became a place where I sort my mind through writing things down. So I guess my readers would definitely feel that I'm slowly detaching from this blog. But in actual fact, my heart is still close to this blog.
The interesting thing about this process is that I knew my writings would be read by others, and therefore when I do mind sorting or soul searching using this platform, I am somewhat accountable to everyone, regardless if I know you or not. I believe in being accountable to all as it makes me transparent. Being transparent gives me a power, a power to forge relationship in a deeper level.
I will continue to pen my thoughts, my feelings down here whenever I could. I wish I could update more often, but a lot of times, I know my time should be spent elsewhere, elsewhere where more impact can be done to myself and others compared to just dropping words here.
Well, happy new year 2015 to all! Winter is almost over. ;)
I realise one of the worst things as I grow older is that I can't share anything with anyone anymore.
It's not that I used to share every single thing with others. But as life evolves into a more complicated state, there are more considerations to juggle and deal with. It's pretty unfortunate. I don't like it to be this way really, I don't like to swallow a lot of words down without brainstorming it or getting some feedback, but that seems to be the only way to go, in the name of maturity hey.
My 'public' blog is really... public nowadays, too.
There's no turning back. I have to learn to be an expert of myself in order to continue striving as a person. All these will only get more 'exciting' and well, hey, I will be a better person than I've ever imagined.
When it comes to love, I always don’t have a fixed definition for love. Well, I’m talking about the boy girl love, not the general love or agape love.
So Is there a perfect love?
I always hear songs, describing how exciting, pure and romantic love is. How one would love the other more and more each day, how their feelings for the other is uncontainable.
But I reckon every mature being knows that that is just a facet of love. Love encompasses so many different facets of feelings and emotions.
Having walking on this planet for 25 years, I realise life has more hardships than smooth-going moments. Same goes with love I suppose, where it often brings more disappointment, hatred and confusion. If that’s the case, why love in the very beginning?
Some people may have entered into a relationship ever so naturally that it is beyond their conscious decision. Some people may tend to overthink, and be very careful in handling relationship related issues. I would think I belong to this group more.
And having said that, I realise that once I’ve decided to step into a relationship, I am exposed to the risk of all sorts of emotional turmoils. And it involves 2 person, not just me. Meaning, I have to manage 2 persons’ emotion rather than one. That is indeed a very sticky situation.
But love has always been elevated to a position where is seems that, without love one is almost impossible to feel the fulfilment of life. Without having someone to express our love to, we would most likely be living a lonely life, while craving for a life that is satisfying. Is that the case?
Or is it simply because I have never really experienced love and that’s the roots of all these ramblings?
So what is love?
I think there must be greater wisdom in love. There must be greater testimonies of love other than those that I’ve witnessed. There must be some other facets of love that I’ve never experienced.
There must be more than this.
And the only way to find it out is to take the risk and explore it all. Would it be worth it? Time will tell.
I wouldn't think it's a short brief year, as most of the time I would. The last 12 months feels like a long, long time for me.
It has been a long journey that very often I couldn't see the end of it.
The reason is because it has been a journey of faith, obedience and character building. When it comes to leaving comfort zone, it has never been easy. It has never been brief. It always feel like it's taking so long to be able to have a breakthrough within myself.
Nevertheless God is good. He has put people around me to journey with me. He has put words in my heart when I feel so lost and hurtful. He is the best teacher and comforter. He is always firm and therefore I put my hope in Him, knowing that all things work for the good of those who love Him. What else could I ask for?
And now I'm embarking into the second year. I pray that God will grant me freshness and a renewed passion for my mission. The best is yet to come. =)